I think I’ve been tired, truth be told. How­ever I do seem to be com­ing up dry on any kind of imag­i­na­tive… thing. I have this idea in my head — as usual — but it’s not com­ing out. Like a don­key, I’m chas­ing a car­rot that’s hang­ing just out of reach and man is it get­ting old quick. I don’t know what’s hap­pened; has it been that long since I wrote any­thing vaguely new that I’ve for­got­ten the process? Granted, I haven’t really thrown myself into any­thing since Ran Red back in 2009, and even though I ‘fin­ished’ it, I haven’t fully com­pleted the process on that and it’s now 2011.

May comes along at a steady pace, but it’s more a labour of weekly love, and though I enjoy the adven­ture, it’s not stir­ring me the same way a book would. There doesn’t seem to be the same amount of grav­i­tas in a web ser­ial, and the depth I think finds itself a lit­tle more on the shal­low end of the spec­trum, pos­si­bly my fault — maybe that’s why I haven’t got­ten any replies, com­ments or sug­ges­tions. Maybe May is bor­ing and not engag­ing, not the same way a ‘full’ story is anyway.

See, I’m wan­der­ing off again, find­ing my way away from the actual point I’m here, typ­ing this.

I re-read my World Build­ing Month posts from a cou­ple of years ago on Arbi­ture and they were very inter­est­ing. That was another world that bogged me down; a uni­verse too over­whelm­ing to cre­ate fully. Seems to hap­pen­ing again in a cer­tain way — maybe I’m just not very good at cre­at­ing geo­graph­i­cal and sit­u­a­tional exis­tence, maybe I’m bet­ter with char­ac­ters? It also reminded me of the Novel Push Ini­tia­tive, and how that was a good chal­lenge. I’d be up for doing one of those again, though Nick has gone slightly AWOL (I’d insert a link to 5-rings, but Nick’s hav­ing some issues with mal­ware and Google hates his URL, bum­mer) and I’m not sure I’m the right per­son to strike it up and lead it — in March, April, or otherwise.

Talk­ing of which, the writos­phere seems pretty quiet of late. A lot of blogs are not post­ing too much, not sure if that’s in part due to suc­cesses (con­grats) or busy lives (no shit, right?) but it makes for an inter­est­ing trawl through my usual blog links.

I need to world build is the bot­tom line here. I need to re-read my Orson Scott Card book, go over In Writ­ing and get my head into gear. Ignore the stresses, push on and write some­thing new.

Thanks for being the shoul­der for my venting,

RG