I realise I have ideas, and some­what of a sturdy frame­work when it comes down to what I have cre­ated (and con­tinue to cre­ate) dur­ing this world build­ing month. I think I have a good real­i­sa­tion of where I am going — and who will take us there. I have a world (or three), a strong founded race to turn and spin on my stage and enough grip on my uni­verse to tweak my mar­i­onettes with confidence.

So why then, do I not know how I am get­ting there? There is a path in-front of me, but I’m not sure what means of trans­port to ride down it (metaphors, metaphors). A large part of the approach I am hav­ing with this is some­what hinged on motion-creationism, which is a fancy way of say­ing I’m mak­ing it up as I go along. But what’s new there, right? Espe­cially with me.

This I can han­dle, it’s my way. The chief prob­lem — if you want to call it that — is my choice on what this all means. I have a gen­eral thought that repeats itself and tells me is the mean­ing of my story and in the end, it will be so. This leaves me with being cau­tious in how to approach what will appar­ently be inevitable.

It reminds me of the wing-loss ques­tion: how does a race such as the Angelus loose their wings? An answer based on logic would be a fun­da­men­tally strong foun­da­tion, but would it be the best answer? I’m not talk­ing twists and shock-value. I’m talk­ing about what would really be the ulti­mate answer that would irrev­o­ca­bly lead to such con­se­quence and glean such a les­son in the end (not a ques­tion, but a state­ment of the rea­son behind my indecision).

I think it was Stephen King, who said some­thing regard­ing his char­ac­ters lead­ing his story. Don’t plot — in so many words, he said in On Writ­ing, but let events unfold. He has a point, and way of look­ing at writ­ing that I agree with. It might not be some­thing I am faced with daily, but it is the way I feel com­fort­able approach­ing my own writ­ing. I have to have some idea of what is hap­pen­ing, why it’s hap­pen­ing and what may be the out­come… but that doesn’t mean I have to plan every scene and what it will entail.

At present, I’m not overly con­cerned with this issue. It will resolve itself in time and for now, I think I can focus on mov­ing for­ward and putting things down on paper. If I start at the begin­ning and walk steadily — keep­ing an eye out for sign­posts — I think I’ll find my way.

Inci­den­tally, I think I’m going to enter NaNoW­riMo. I think I’ll use this as an oppor­tu­nity to ham­mer out my story of the Fallen and their Angelus kin. Should I keep the inter­est and intrigue of this all in my head, I may be able to actu­ally turn this roller-coaster of a ride into a well-rounded vehi­cle for suc­cess (you can ‘buddy’ me here).

(Image: Imbal­anced — Viviphyd)